Thursday, October 15, 2009

Sidetracked (RIP)

(yes, I missed yesterday. Oh well)

I have been looking forward to RIP all year, and now that it's the season of the scary, I find myself completely sidetracked by other things. I am currently just finishing up a Ruth Reichl book (although I am a few pages away from also finishing a Sandman collection). I can't seem to find many scary books that I want to read. Maybe it's the weather. It's actually muggy outside today. WTF? Honest-to-goodness mugginess. We don't get that around here real often.

However, once I'm done with these two books, I'm reading Let The Right One In, and I am hauling out the fabulous scary-movie list and settling in for a few weeks of spook before we're all done with October. We had a good rainstorm this week but it would help get me in the mood if the temperatures would drop below 70. Please?

I also find myself thinking about some other things in a completely different way. For the past 10 years I have been all Practical, Practical, Practical. When I had thought of going to grad school, it was only for practical reasons. I've been taking practical science pre-requisites for 8 years. I've been willing to shoulder The Big Burden and Do What I Need To Do (for why?). However, on Monday, we got news that Terri's doctor passed away suddenly last week. He sounds like he was a pretty amazing person. That news, combined with all the excitement over the XMRV research, has flipped a little switch in my head for some reason.

I was imagining catching up with an old friend (nobody in particular, just anyone I haven't seen in a long time) and playing out two scenarios. One in which I talked about going to school for something which is useful, but which I have no passion for. In which I talked about putting off doing art and putting off having fun, because I'm so focused on security and safety (which is, obviously, an illusion anyway). One in which I am dull, dull, dull.

Or, on the other hand, the scenario in which I talk about my awesome job which I love but have no idea where it will lead (oh well!), my cool studies (studying something I LOVE even though I don't know of any practical uses), my art efforts and failures. Which one sounds more fun? Which one would I like to be in the midst of, should I suddenly drop dead of pulmonary embolism?

So I'm thinking: do something fun, for Pete's sake. Life's short.

I've decided to take either a writing class or a literature class in January, just a community-college level one. Mostly just to get my toes wet and see how I like it, and to get some writing samples should I decide to apply to school. We'll see how that goes. If I like it, I'll apply to grad school. If I don't, I'll take an art history class and see how THAT feels.

Which brings me back to books. I was at the library, looking for RIP books (because I said I was only going to read RIP books for two months), and the Anne Rice book and the Ruth Reichl books all leapt out at me. I thought, "I really need to read these." Turns out, they are both about people finding their passion, even if it's not logical, not practical. I've really enjoyed them and I feel like maybe I should just quit worrying so much and just do what I want to do. I don't need to be Anne Rice or Ruth Reichl, but I could be a pretty fabulous Daphne. Even if it means reading biographies in the midst of RIP season.

6 comments:

Eva said...

It sounds like you're exactly where you need to be, in your reading and your life! :)

Barefoot_Mommy said...

I've gotten sidetracked with RIP too. LOL

I say go for your passions. I spent 3 years in college racking up credit hours in various "practical" fields like business... *shudder*, science, even MATH... but I never finished up any of them.. because I had no passion for them and therefor no motivation.

I'm not brave enough to go for something I love like art or literature or writing... but I wish I was. I'll just live vicariously through your endeavors. LOL

Nymeth said...

I keep getting sidetracked too...but I think I just need to go where my whims take me and now worry about it.

And hooray for taking a class! I've only been out of school for a few months and I miss it already, lol.

Stefanie said...

I think you are already a pretty fabulous Daphne :) I look forward to hearing all about whatever class you end up taking in January. You are going to have such a blast!

Tammie said...

i love this post. (do i say that too often??) but its true. i think there is something to be said for doing what makes you happy. im sure you can find a pracical/happy middle ground.

frankly, i think you're already a pretty fab daphne. but whatever.

:)

Daphne said...

Aw, you guys are all so sweet.

Eva: it kinda feels that way! weird.

Barefoot: thanks for the reminder to be brave!

Ana: whims are fun... and school is addicting! I graduated college 11 years ago and somehow have not been able to stay away for more than a year without taking a class...

Stefanie: I'm really looking forward to taking a fun class! I need to find a good one, with a good teacher.

Tammie: thanks! I'm glad you liked the post -- I'm feeling good right now and am just going with it. You are sweet.

You are all sweet! Thanks for the support!