Tuesday, August 18, 2009

Chop, Chop!

...and there goes the hair!

I didn't take a "before" but I probably chopped off a good 5-6 inches (from the back). I really had no idea what I was going to do before I went to the salon, and so I just sort of hemmed and hawed and the hairstylist kind of just did what she wanted and... here we have the new hair. Which is almost the exact same hair I had 5-6 years ago. Which is not a bad thing, I actually love this haircut... but I sort of didn't expect to have it again right yet! Oh well. It's cute, it's short and cool (we get a long Indian summer here) and I think once it grows a little it will be just right.

Not very much going on. Things feel kind of odd right now -- simultaneously whirlwind busy but also sort of calm. I can't seem to remember what I'm doing one day to the next. I'm reading Blade Runner and I love it, but I keep forgetting to take it with me out of the bedroom, so I haven't gotten through it very quickly. I feel like lots of things are going to be resolved or decided very soon, so everything is rushing up to that point, and it's hard to tell what's what. But it could be that nothing is going to be decided, that it's all in my head (since I can't even really pinpoint what I'm talking about)... but sometimes you just have that feeling, you know? A sort of rushed optimism. Stuff's happening. I don't know what, but, Stuff? It is happening. (somewhere)

It's also drawing close to my very favorite time of year. I can't wait. September and October are my favorite months, with November and December close seconds. I'll be turning 35 in September, which is very strange. When I was little I thought 35 was SO OLD. And here I am, almost 35, and I feel like I'm about 22. Well, maybe 25. It depends on the day. But 35? No way. I guess that's a good thing, right?

So this blog post is a good case in point. I feel like stuff is brewing, but I'm unable to bring it up to the surface. I'm curious about what is going to come up in the next few weeks and months.

In the meantime... totally loving Philip K. Dick. Kitty is doing okay (although she has a big ouchie under her front leg where the tumor is too close to the surface, poor thing). I'm hoping that things are on an upswing in general, but it's hard to tell. I'm feeling oddly optimistic. I hope it continues.

7 comments:

Carl V. said...

I love it, looks great! I particularly like it in back. At first when I read that you chopped off a good 5-6 inches I was thinking, how did she cut her own hair in the back and make it look so good. LOL! I know some people who are strictly fans of long hair. I personally think women look beautiful with short, medium-length, or long hair depending on how it suits them, etc. I generally like Amy Adams with longer hair but I thought she looked really cute with the shorter hair in Julie & Julia last night.

I read Blade Runner...Do Androids Dream of Electric Sheep...last year. Having been a fan of the film for so long I wanted to see how the book compared. It was an interesting read and I enjoyed it. My review is here if you're interested after you finish:

http://www.stainlesssteeldroppings.com/?p=855

I too look forward to the last 4 months of the year more than any other. That has been that way since childhood. The thrill of the start of school and seeing friends again, football, Halloween, my birthday, Thanksgiving, Christmas, autumn leaves and temps, snow...it all combines to make that time of year magical and memorable. So turning 35 is strange, huh? You're still a child! ;) I'll be 41 in Nov. I don't particularly feel different than I did at 35. A bit wiser, finally, and making better decisions. But few other changes.

I hope you continue feeling optimistic and would encourage you to be optimistic regardless of the way you feel. If things are brewing, allow them to do so and then enjoy what comes to the surface, whatever that may be.

Tammie said...

i love the hair! its gorgeous. i think the picture itself is very interesting too. i like how dark your eyes look.

no matter how old i get, i feel like a stupid 21 year old. some days 26-27. what is up with this?

Nymeth said...

It looks great on you! I've been considering doing something similar, actually...you may just have given me courage.

And yes, I'd say that feeling young at heart is definitely a good thing! I still feel 18 half the time :P

Adrienne said...

it looks great and so do you. i hear what you mean about not feeling old. i feel so fortunate sometimes that 40 simply feels like 30. xo

Kate said...

I love the swoop over the eye at front! Very mysterious.

Age is such a relative thing, and I know exactly what you mean about age "expectancies." I remember when I thought 25 was the end of all things young and fun, you were practically at death's door once you were there - and I was probably 20 when I thought that. I turned 30 this year (and it still feels odd saying that) - and I was a little sensitive about it but, lo and behold, I woke up on my birthday and felt exactly the same as I did the day before! Most days I feel pretty young at heart, and that's nice.

We had a very short stretch of Oregon rain and clouds a couple of weeks ago, which totally set my mind into fall! I can't wait. (Of course, today it's 95.)

Daphne said...

Carl: Thanks! I will definitely check out your review. It's a short book; there is no reason it should be taking me this long to read it except that I'm totally distracted by this nebulous "something".

Tammie: I was struck by how dark my eyes look too -- I actually have very light green eyes. Hmm. Yeah, I'm pretty much a dumb 20-something all the time too. Oh well.

Ana: go for it! I love a good short haircut.

Adrienne: Thanks! The fact taht I don't *feel* old makes up for the fact that those years keep marching by anyway...

Kate: Funny you should say that, because I *am* a very mysterious person. Ahem. I am feeling somewhat apprehensive about 35, but really, whatever. It doesn't really matter.

Stefanie said...

Love the hair! Turning 30 was no big deal, 35 made me stop and think a bit, but here I am at 41 and most of the time I still feel 25. It's always nice though when thinks I'm 30 :)