Thursday, October 15, 2009

Sidetracked (RIP)

(yes, I missed yesterday. Oh well)

I have been looking forward to RIP all year, and now that it's the season of the scary, I find myself completely sidetracked by other things. I am currently just finishing up a Ruth Reichl book (although I am a few pages away from also finishing a Sandman collection). I can't seem to find many scary books that I want to read. Maybe it's the weather. It's actually muggy outside today. WTF? Honest-to-goodness mugginess. We don't get that around here real often.

However, once I'm done with these two books, I'm reading Let The Right One In, and I am hauling out the fabulous scary-movie list and settling in for a few weeks of spook before we're all done with October. We had a good rainstorm this week but it would help get me in the mood if the temperatures would drop below 70. Please?

I also find myself thinking about some other things in a completely different way. For the past 10 years I have been all Practical, Practical, Practical. When I had thought of going to grad school, it was only for practical reasons. I've been taking practical science pre-requisites for 8 years. I've been willing to shoulder The Big Burden and Do What I Need To Do (for why?). However, on Monday, we got news that Terri's doctor passed away suddenly last week. He sounds like he was a pretty amazing person. That news, combined with all the excitement over the XMRV research, has flipped a little switch in my head for some reason.

I was imagining catching up with an old friend (nobody in particular, just anyone I haven't seen in a long time) and playing out two scenarios. One in which I talked about going to school for something which is useful, but which I have no passion for. In which I talked about putting off doing art and putting off having fun, because I'm so focused on security and safety (which is, obviously, an illusion anyway). One in which I am dull, dull, dull.

Or, on the other hand, the scenario in which I talk about my awesome job which I love but have no idea where it will lead (oh well!), my cool studies (studying something I LOVE even though I don't know of any practical uses), my art efforts and failures. Which one sounds more fun? Which one would I like to be in the midst of, should I suddenly drop dead of pulmonary embolism?

So I'm thinking: do something fun, for Pete's sake. Life's short.

I've decided to take either a writing class or a literature class in January, just a community-college level one. Mostly just to get my toes wet and see how I like it, and to get some writing samples should I decide to apply to school. We'll see how that goes. If I like it, I'll apply to grad school. If I don't, I'll take an art history class and see how THAT feels.

Which brings me back to books. I was at the library, looking for RIP books (because I said I was only going to read RIP books for two months), and the Anne Rice book and the Ruth Reichl books all leapt out at me. I thought, "I really need to read these." Turns out, they are both about people finding their passion, even if it's not logical, not practical. I've really enjoyed them and I feel like maybe I should just quit worrying so much and just do what I want to do. I don't need to be Anne Rice or Ruth Reichl, but I could be a pretty fabulous Daphne. Even if it means reading biographies in the midst of RIP season.


Eva said...

It sounds like you're exactly where you need to be, in your reading and your life! :)

Barefoot_Mommy said...

I've gotten sidetracked with RIP too. LOL

I say go for your passions. I spent 3 years in college racking up credit hours in various "practical" fields like business... *shudder*, science, even MATH... but I never finished up any of them.. because I had no passion for them and therefor no motivation.

I'm not brave enough to go for something I love like art or literature or writing... but I wish I was. I'll just live vicariously through your endeavors. LOL

Nymeth said...

I keep getting sidetracked too...but I think I just need to go where my whims take me and now worry about it.

And hooray for taking a class! I've only been out of school for a few months and I miss it already, lol.

Stefanie said...

I think you are already a pretty fabulous Daphne :) I look forward to hearing all about whatever class you end up taking in January. You are going to have such a blast!

Tammie said...

i love this post. (do i say that too often??) but its true. i think there is something to be said for doing what makes you happy. im sure you can find a pracical/happy middle ground.

frankly, i think you're already a pretty fab daphne. but whatever.


Daphne said...

Aw, you guys are all so sweet.

Eva: it kinda feels that way! weird.

Barefoot: thanks for the reminder to be brave!

Ana: whims are fun... and school is addicting! I graduated college 11 years ago and somehow have not been able to stay away for more than a year without taking a class...

Stefanie: I'm really looking forward to taking a fun class! I need to find a good one, with a good teacher.

Tammie: thanks! I'm glad you liked the post -- I'm feeling good right now and am just going with it. You are sweet.

You are all sweet! Thanks for the support!